My Role in Surrender!!

Worry, Worry, Worry. I am tired of worry. I am tired of cracking my head all night long thinking that am coming up with strategic solutions. I am tired of overthinking. I am tired of giving the evil one a chance in my mind to push me into anxiety of the future. I want tranquility. I want peace of mind. I want harmony of thoughts. I surrender. I surrender to you Lord every human effort I think will lead me to success without consulting you. I surrender every mortal strategy that does not acknowledge you. I desire to come to a place where once a prayer is made then my heart welcomes and clings on to the peace that is beyond understanding. I want victory in the battle field of the mind! I want victory in my life!!

Several years back, I struggled greatly with overthinking. My mind ran so fast day and night. I talk pretty fast so my mind really moved in the same pace. I remember having to take sleeping pills so as to slow my thinking and finally get to sleep. Now I look back and I realize what an oppression I was under. And how much deliverance I received from my Father in heaven. Now and again I can see the various ways the enemy would want me back in that corner. That dark place. But I say NO!! I say NO to the traps of the evil one as I have come to know them all too well.

Devil, you are a liar!! The Bible says:

1. Psalms 29:11 The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace
2. Isaiah 26:12 LORD, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us
3. John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid

The Lord did not leave as, as orphans, he gave us a Helper who lives inside of us. He will teach us all things. He will help us and be with us forever. One condition that stands out in John 14: 15-27 where Jesus promises the Holy Spirit, is that if we love him, we should show it by keeping his commands. And that is when he will ask the Father and he will give us the Spirit of truth.

In all these discussions about peace and surrender, there is a role for me to play. That if Jesus is to show himself to me, I have to show him how much I love him. How do I do that? By obeying his commands. Because whoever has his commands and keeps them is the one that really and truly loves him. It is more than just utterances of the words, but more of a way of living. Peace has mostly evaded me when my ways have not been pleasing to the Lord. A lot of unrest occupies my heart. Just the thought that God may not come for me in a certain area of my life just really demeans the power of El Shaddai. I should be better at my perspective of who God is. But often I find myself doing the former.

What do I do in such scenarios? I surrender. I surrender my weaknesses and questions to the one that knows it all. My other role in the effort to surrender is to surrender that very struggle that I may not be humanly able sometimes to actually surrender. So I need to surrender that weakness itself. Even the lack of will to surrender needs to be put at the feet of Jesus. It needs to be surrendered.

Part of the lyrics in the song above say :-

“I don’t understand

But I understand

Why God I need you

It’s why God I run to Your arms

Over and over again

It’s why God I cling to Your love

And hold on for dear life

And I find You are right by my side” – Austin French – Christian musician

I am truly humbled to know that our God is a good Father. He wants me to come to him just as I am. Only Him can fix me. Only Him can heal me. Only Him knows me fully and truly enough to restore all that the enemy has taken from me. Whether knowingly or unknowingly. I believe in you Lord. You are ever the Omnipresent and Omnipotent God!! You are the Alpha and Omega!! You say that there is nothing impossible with you. You are the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob. I run to your arms over and over again. I cling to your love and hold on for dear life! May the same grace reach all those that run to you our Loving Father!! You say that heaven is your throne, and the earth your footstool!!
Let all the praise, honor and glory be unto you Jehovah! You deserve it all!!

God bless you!! See you next week Friday!!

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I Wish I Never Sinned!!

Bwana Yesu Asifiwe!!! (Swahili for Praise Lord Jesus)

My gratitude is to Jehovah for the past week and this far! What about you?

This week in church, we had three days of congregational prayer and fasting for revival and restoration. The theme chapter was Ezekiel 37:1-14.

The Valley of Dry Bones
37 The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. 2 He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. 3 He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”

I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.”

4 Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! 5 This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath[a] enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

9 Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.

11 Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.’ 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 Then you, my people, will know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. 14 I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the Lord have spoken, and I have done it, declares the Lord.’”

On the first day of prayer, I took out some sticky notes and wrote down all the dead situations in my life and prayed over them as per the guidance of the scripture above. My heart was very expectant of an encounter with the God of Abraham(meaning covenant keeping God), God of Isaac (meaning God of impossibilities) and God of Jacob (meaning God of transformation). An encounter to hear from my Heavenly Father. I did!! And I will share!

My thoughts over those three days made me wish I was not a sinner at all. I wished I was this perfect girl that did everything right before God. That thought the right things, said the right words, acted the right way. I wished I always made the right decisions, chose the right company, always thought the best of everyone around me. But I wasn’t. Actually the total opposite. It is a daily battle in the mind to keep my thoughts pure. Struggling with viewing people the way God sees them despite their failures. Struggling to see me as how God sees me. A strong and courageous person!!

My desire to be perfect was really misplaced. It was a selfish thought and desire for that fact. Why? Can you imagine if we were all perfect? All doing righteous acts before Jehovah. All the universe worshiping IAM THAT IAM. Would there be use for the blood of Jesus? It then means that the Bible would not be as it is. Full of stories of people that were weak and needed God’s help. Stories like the one in the scripture above. And most of all I would be saying that the Creator of Heaven and Earth did not know what He was doing when he made us. We as humans are the creation of a God that was never created. A God that is righteous and perfect in all His ways. Who is then better placed to know my beginning and my end?

Somehow during these days, my eyes were opened to the sins I committed and how broken I felt inside. Flashes of memories kept on happening in my mind of every other moment I fell short of God’s glory. The  gospel radio station I listen to just “happened” to bring guests that spoke as if they knew me. Knew my faults. Knew my failures. I felt like an open book before God and my life was revealed before me. I believe that was the Holy Spirit showing me the areas I really needed to repent to enable me partake in the invitation of victory in my life by the scripture above. I truly needed to cleanse my home of all dirt. I needed to cleanse my heart of all filth for the occupancy of the Most High God!!

These three days were not only days of repentance for me. But days that have elevated me to the place God desires for me. Despite our unfaithfulness, our Heavenly Father remains faithful. He will not give us a stone when we ask for bread and will not give a snake when we ask for fish. I thought I wanted to tear up the sticky notes mentioned earlier (as as sign that I have surrendered all to Yahweh), instead I have chosen to keep it as I wait upon the Lord for the resurrection of all the dead situations in my individual and family life. I look forward to receiving them in the physical world. How I love the peace within me!! I feel my burdens have been lifted and the four winds have brought life to me. I know that am out of the grave!

My friend!! Am a living testimony that God is God. He is the same yesterday and forever. He is the same God served by Abraham, David, Moses, Joshua, Elijah, Elisha, Samuel Jeremiah and Paul. He is the same God we serve today. He is able to transform your life once you have an encounter with Him. He is more than able to provide exceedingly, abundantly, above all you could ever ask or imagine! That is our God. That is Jehovah.He is able to give you life and much life indeed! Jesus declared that he is the truth, the way and the Life!! Ask the Sovereign Lord to breathe on you and you will surely be a witness to the great power of a perfect and righteous King!!

Am confident of God’s master plan for all humanity!! Be blessed and see you next week Friday!!

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